Nothing to fix

Oikko Rode

In the underground storm shelter
A pipe caught a leak
Droplets fall on metal
One
Two
Three

It’s a beautiful morning
Or after noon
I stopped caring a while ago
But it’s beautiful.
Soft breeze with the ever changing city smell
Soil, petrol, dead animals.
But I feel good this morning
I planned my day the night before
Books, exercise, shower, tv
Beep, ring tones , sirens, car noises
All wrapped in tiny capsules
Background music to swallow it all down.

Nothing is broken,
Nothing to fix,
Four
Five
Six

The book is boring
I’m reading just so I can finish it
Tv is nice
I forgot what I liked about the show I watched a minute ago
But it was nice, I think.
Exercise now
Abs first, then chest then legs
I lie down for my crunches
One big breath in
Now go
I can’t get up
I lay on the cold floor
I’m all out of breath

A shower, yes
Rinse all the fatigue from out of my mind
I’m still all together
I’m still alright
Seven
Eight
Nine

a person laying on a pillow

I stand under the shower
A loud knock on the door
“It’s been half an hour “
“But I just got here”
I snap out of it
I feel embarrassed
I forgot to turn on the faucet.

Today was supposed to be better than yesterday.

I planned and all

Books, social media, exercise, shower

I thought I was getting better.

But
There’s a flood underneath my feet
I feel the water rising
There’s certainly a leak
But where?

I thought nothing was broken.
I thought I fixed them all.

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